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**Sultanim** · 13.09.09, 21:35

Yazi: Can dundar - Aska ve Terke Dair - 1999

Bazen oyle bir iliskiye tutulursunuz ki, ne sevebilir, ne terk edebilirsiniz

Kor kutuk baglanmissinizdir aslinda

En guzel yillarinizin, aci tatli hatiralarinizin ortagidir;
ic cekismelerinizin nedeni, yazilarinizin ilhami, sohbetlerinizin konusudur
Goz yaslariniz da, bilincaltinizda, kahkahanizdadir
Korkunca saklandiginiz bir siginak, cosunca optugunuz bir bayrak
Sevdaniz riyasiz, cikarsiz, karsiliksizdir Sinirsiz ve nihayetsiz;

Olmek var, donmek yoktur

Gun gelir anlarsiniz; icten ice bir seylerin kanadigini
Tutkulu sevdalarin gizli hancerleri baslar parildamaya
Surasindan, burasindan elestirmeye koyulursunuz:
"Soyle gorunse, oyle demese, degisse biraz ya da eskisi gibi olsa"

Baskalarini ornek gostermeye, "Bak onlar nasil yasiyor" demeye baslarsiniz
Hem birlikte yasayip, hem ozgur olmanin yollarini ararsiniz
Askinizin gozu kor degildir artik, yanlisini gorur duzeltmek istersiniz

"Eskiden boyle miydi ya" diye baslayan sohbetlerde acilir elestirinin kapisi;
acildikca, bastirilmis itirazlar yukselir bilincaltindan
Boyle suremeyecegini bilirsiniz Degissin istersiniz
O, sevgisizliginize yorar bunu
Ihanete sayar

Tutkulu iliskilerde ihanetin bedeli olumdur

"Ya sev boyle ya da terk et" diye gurler

Bir zamanlar bir gulucuguyle alacakaranligi isitan o ruya, bir kabusa donusur birden
Kapatir gonlunun kapilarini, yasaklar kendini size Hoyrattir, bakmaz yuzunuze
Zehir akar dilinden, konusturmaz, suclar, yargilar mahkum eder
Muhurler dudaklarinizi, yirtar atar yazdiklarinizi, siler sizi defterden

"Iyiligin icindi hepsi, seni sevdigim icin" dersiniz, dinletemezsiniz
Ayrilirsaniz yasamayacaginizi bilirsiniz, ama boyle de sevemezsiniz
ihanetten kirilmistir kaleminiz; severek, terk edersiniz

"Madem oyle" nin cagi baslar ondan sonra
Madem ki siz boylesine tutkunken, o hep baskalarini secmistir,
madem ki kiymetinizi bilmemistir,
o halde "gunah sizden gitmistir"

Lanet ederek bu karsiliksiz aska, cekip gitmeleri denersiniz

Askin gocmenlik cagi baslar boylece
Daha ozgur olacaginiz limanlara demirlerseniz bir sure
Ne var ki unutamaz, uzaktan uzaga izlersiniz olup biteni
Etrafi bir suru ugursuzla dolmus, kurda kusa yem olmustur
Deli kanlilar, eli kanlilar, ugruna olenler, sirtina binenler sarmistir cevresini
Gurur duyar onlarla, koynunda besler, gozunu oysunlar diye

Ugruna kan dokenleri sever, yoluna gul dokenlerden fazla

"Bana nekendi secimi" diye omuz silkmeye cabalarsiniz bir sure

Ama sonra
ansizin kulagimiza calinan bir sarki ya da kapi araligindan suzulup gelen bir koku,
hatirlatir onu yeniden
Yaban ellerde, baska kollarda ondan bahseder aglarsiniz
Kokusunu ozlersiniz;
turkusunu soylemeyi,
sarkisini dinlemeyi,
yemegini yemeyi,
elinden bir kadeh sarap icmeyi

Karsi nehrin kenarindan hasret siirleri haykirirsiniz, sular kulagina fisildasin diye
donup ,

Seni hala seviyorum

diye bagirmak gecer icinizden Donemezsiniz
Goremedikce baglanir, uzaklastikca yakinlasirsiniz
Anlarsiniz ki bir caresiz asktir bu, ne onunla olur, ne onsuz
Hem kollarinda olmek, kucagina gomulmek arzusu,
hem "Ne olacak sonunda" kuskusu

Boyle sevemezsiniz, terk de edemezsiniz Surunur gidersiniz

Author : Can Dundar - 1999
Translation : Canan Kim (Yesil Erik - 2003)

Sometimes you find yourself stuck in a relationship, which you neither can love nor let go

In fact, you're bound to it hopelessly

It's a part of the most beautiful years of your life and your bitter sweet memories; it's the reason of your sighs, inspiration of the things you write, the subject of your conversations It's in your tears, subconscious, laughter
It's the shelter that you turn to when you're afraid, the flag you kiss in ecstasy
Your love is without hypocrisy, benefit and response
It has no limits and no boundaries;
"You can't give it up even in if you face death"
And one day you understand you're bleeding inside
The hidden daggers of passionate love start to shine
You start criticizing this and that;
"I wish she looked different, I wish she didn't say that,

I wish she can change a little or I wish she could be the way she used to be"
You start showing other people as examples and say,
"Look how they live"

You search ways for being free while you're living together
Your love isn't blind anymore, you see her faults and you try to correct them
The door of criticisms opens with the line, "She wasn't like this before"

The more the door opens, the more screams the suppressed objections from deep down inside You realize that you cannot go on that way You want her to change
She interprets this as you don't love her anymore As betrayal

In passionate relationships, death is the price of betrayal
She roars, "Either love me as I am or leave"

That dream which once warms the twilight with a smile, suddenly becomes a nightmare
She closes the doors of her soul, forbids you to enter
She is cruel, ignores you

Her every word is poisonous now, she doesn't let you talk, accuses, judges, sentences you
She seals your lips, tears the things you wrote apart, erases you from her life
You say, "Everything was for your own good, because I love you"
But no one listens to you anymore You know that you cannot live if you break up but you can't continue to love like that, either Your pen is broken with betrayal;
you leave even if you're still in love

Then begins the part you say, "If so, then"
If she chose some other person over you, if she didn't realize your worth, then
"you have nothing else left to do"

You try to go away while cursing this one-way love

So begins the era of migration of love
You anchor at the harbors in which you can be free for a while
However you can never be able to forget,
you always watch the things going on from a distance
You see that worthless people has encircled her, she's wasted
Youngsters, murderers, people who die for her,
people who use her are all around her
She's proud of them, keeps them close, so that they can harm her more

She loves the ones who spills blood better than the ones who sprinkles rose petals before her
You try to shrug and say, "I don't care It's her choice Serves her well," for a while

But then

a song you hear suddenly or an door which comes crawling through the open door,
reminds you of her
In strange lands, in strange arms, you start talking about her and you cry
You miss her scent,
singing her song,
listening to her sing,
eating her food,
drinking a glass of wine with her

You cry poems of yearning from across the river, for the waters can whisper in her ear
You wish to go back and scream

I love you

But you can't
Your bond grows stronger while you can't see;
you grow closer while the distance increases between you
You realize that this is a hopeless love; you can neither be together nor apart
In one hand there's the yearning for dying in her arms,
lying in her lap, on the other hand there are doubts,

"What's to come in the end?"

You can neither love, nor let go You just crawl in between

NaqiS · 28.09.09, 20:22

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**Flu** · 29.09.09, 15:39

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13.09.09, 21:35	#1
Sultanim Zaman Üyelik tarihi: Dec 2008 Mesajlar: 6.012 Tesekkür: 587 1.132 mesajına 1.459 teşekkür aldı. Rep Gücü: 779 Rep Puanı: 35881	Senin, Benim, Bizim, Herkesin Hikayesi Yazi: Can dundar - Aska ve Terke Dair - 1999 Bazen oyle bir iliskiye tutulursunuz ki, ne sevebilir, ne terk edebilirsiniz Kor kutuk baglanmissinizdir aslinda En guzel yillarinizin, aci tatli hatiralarinizin ortagidir; ic cekismelerinizin nedeni, yazilarinizin ilhami, sohbetlerinizin konusudur Goz yaslariniz da, bilincaltinizda, kahkahanizdadir Korkunca saklandiginiz bir siginak, cosunca optugunuz bir bayrak Sevdaniz riyasiz, cikarsiz, karsiliksizdir Sinirsiz ve nihayetsiz; Olmek var, donmek yoktur Gun gelir anlarsiniz; icten ice bir seylerin kanadigini Tutkulu sevdalarin gizli hancerleri baslar parildamaya Surasindan, burasindan elestirmeye koyulursunuz: "Soyle gorunse, oyle demese, degisse biraz ya da eskisi gibi olsa" Baskalarini ornek gostermeye, "Bak onlar nasil yasiyor" demeye baslarsiniz Hem birlikte yasayip, hem ozgur olmanin yollarini ararsiniz Askinizin gozu kor degildir artik, yanlisini gorur duzeltmek istersiniz "Eskiden boyle miydi ya" diye baslayan sohbetlerde acilir elestirinin kapisi; acildikca, bastirilmis itirazlar yukselir bilincaltindan Boyle suremeyecegini bilirsiniz Degissin istersiniz O, sevgisizliginize yorar bunu Ihanete sayar Tutkulu iliskilerde ihanetin bedeli olumdur "Ya sev boyle ya da terk et" diye gurler Bir zamanlar bir gulucuguyle alacakaranligi isitan o ruya, bir kabusa donusur birden Kapatir gonlunun kapilarini, yasaklar kendini size Hoyrattir, bakmaz yuzunuze Zehir akar dilinden, konusturmaz, suclar, yargilar mahkum eder Muhurler dudaklarinizi, yirtar atar yazdiklarinizi, siler sizi defterden "Iyiligin icindi hepsi, seni sevdigim icin" dersiniz, dinletemezsiniz Ayrilirsaniz yasamayacaginizi bilirsiniz, ama boyle de sevemezsiniz ihanetten kirilmistir kaleminiz; severek, terk edersiniz "Madem oyle" nin cagi baslar ondan sonra Madem ki siz boylesine tutkunken, o hep baskalarini secmistir, madem ki kiymetinizi bilmemistir, o halde "gunah sizden gitmistir" Lanet ederek bu karsiliksiz aska, cekip gitmeleri denersiniz Askin gocmenlik cagi baslar boylece Daha ozgur olacaginiz limanlara demirlerseniz bir sure Ne var ki unutamaz, uzaktan uzaga izlersiniz olup biteni Etrafi bir suru ugursuzla dolmus, kurda kusa yem olmustur Deli kanlilar, eli kanlilar, ugruna olenler, sirtina binenler sarmistir cevresini Gurur duyar onlarla, koynunda besler, gozunu oysunlar diye Ugruna kan dokenleri sever, yoluna gul dokenlerden fazla "Bana nekendi secimi" diye omuz silkmeye cabalarsiniz bir sure Ama sonra ansizin kulagimiza calinan bir sarki ya da kapi araligindan suzulup gelen bir koku, hatirlatir onu yeniden Yaban ellerde, baska kollarda ondan bahseder aglarsiniz Kokusunu ozlersiniz; turkusunu soylemeyi, sarkisini dinlemeyi, yemegini yemeyi, elinden bir kadeh sarap icmeyi Karsi nehrin kenarindan hasret siirleri haykirirsiniz, sular kulagina fisildasin diye donup , Seni hala seviyorum diye bagirmak gecer icinizden Donemezsiniz Goremedikce baglanir, uzaklastikca yakinlasirsiniz Anlarsiniz ki bir caresiz asktir bu, ne onunla olur, ne onsuz Hem kollarinda olmek, kucagina gomulmek arzusu, hem "Ne olacak sonunda" kuskusu Boyle sevemezsiniz, terk de edemezsiniz Surunur gidersiniz Author : Can Dundar - 1999 Translation : Canan Kim (Yesil Erik - 2003) Sometimes you find yourself stuck in a relationship, which you neither can love nor let go In fact, you're bound to it hopelessly It's a part of the most beautiful years of your life and your bitter sweet memories; it's the reason of your sighs, inspiration of the things you write, the subject of your conversations It's in your tears, subconscious, laughter It's the shelter that you turn to when you're afraid, the flag you kiss in ecstasy Your love is without hypocrisy, benefit and response It has no limits and no boundaries; "You can't give it up even in if you face death" And one day you understand you're bleeding inside The hidden daggers of passionate love start to shine You start criticizing this and that; "I wish she looked different, I wish she didn't say that, I wish she can change a little or I wish she could be the way she used to be" You start showing other people as examples and say, "Look how they live" You search ways for being free while you're living together Your love isn't blind anymore, you see her faults and you try to correct them The door of criticisms opens with the line, "She wasn't like this before" The more the door opens, the more screams the suppressed objections from deep down inside You realize that you cannot go on that way You want her to change She interprets this as you don't love her anymore As betrayal In passionate relationships, death is the price of betrayal She roars, "Either love me as I am or leave" That dream which once warms the twilight with a smile, suddenly becomes a nightmare She closes the doors of her soul, forbids you to enter She is cruel, ignores you Her every word is poisonous now, she doesn't let you talk, accuses, judges, sentences you She seals your lips, tears the things you wrote apart, erases you from her life You say, "Everything was for your own good, because I love you" But no one listens to you anymore You know that you cannot live if you break up but you can't continue to love like that, either Your pen is broken with betrayal; you leave even if you're still in love Then begins the part you say, "If so, then" If she chose some other person over you, if she didn't realize your worth, then "you have nothing else left to do" You try to go away while cursing this one-way love So begins the era of migration of love You anchor at the harbors in which you can be free for a while However you can never be able to forget, you always watch the things going on from a distance You see that worthless people has encircled her, she's wasted Youngsters, murderers, people who die for her, people who use her are all around her She's proud of them, keeps them close, so that they can harm her more She loves the ones who spills blood better than the ones who sprinkles rose petals before her You try to shrug and say, "I don't care It's her choice Serves her well," for a while But then a song you hear suddenly or an door which comes crawling through the open door, reminds you of her In strange lands, in strange arms, you start talking about her and you cry You miss her scent, singing her song, listening to her sing, eating her food, drinking a glass of wine with her You cry poems of yearning from across the river, for the waters can whisper in her ear You wish to go back and scream I love you But you can't Your bond grows stronger while you can't see; you grow closer while the distance increases between you You realize that this is a hopeless love; you can neither be together nor apart In one hand there's the yearning for dying in her arms, lying in her lap, on the other hand there are doubts, "What's to come in the end?" You can neither love, nor let go You just crawl in between __________________ Özlediğim Şimdi Çok Uzaklarda

28.09.09, 20:22	#2
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